Sometimes, choosing someone isn't enough

Hi! I'm Rob. I like to share my story with you. I'm in-love with this girl since our childhood years, we used to plan that we should be together in the rest of our lives. As we grow old and have our own ways of living. I courted her with all my heart and even dedicate my life for her. But, she always refuse to accept my heart. She usually say's "I'm not ready", ready for what? to accept my heart, to fall in-love, to accept the consequences. I finally gave up. My friends told me that I should find someone who can trust and love me. As day pass by, someone told her that I have a new lover. She quickly met up with me and ask me why did I leave her. She even told me that she love me ever since, but she's just afraid to tell the truth. I said to her "When I'm always here for you, to take care and love you. You just reject me like a trash. But, this time that I had a girlfriend, you came back and even told me that you love me. This is not just a game that you will play for a minute then let go after you finished it. I'm with a lovely girl right now. A girl who can exchange my love that I have given to her. I cannot accept you. I'm sorry" She suddenly looked at me straight in my eyes, then a teardrop appears and she quickly run away from me. I was stunned, hurt, and guilty. Who should I choose? the past who always hurt me but still brings joy and happiness in my life or the future that can accept and love me yet I'm still not happy.

Song to pamper: "Run to the arms of the one who loves you" by Xscape